Crazy People

This morning, as usual, I walked to my bus stop to take the Q58. As I was standing there with a few other people, waiting, I saw this crazy guy I've seen about a month ago. He was tall and black, wearing a backpack. I was busy listening to music and typing on my sidekick when he waved to try to catch my attention. I looked up and took my ipod earphones out. He then asked me about my "book bag" and what it stood for( It was a victorias secret tote). He was weird. I knew he was crazy because of the way he spoke and the way he dressed. He looked about 40 years old. Anyway, my day wasn't that good. I felt really tired and gloomy most of the time. It was very humid too. As usual, we didn't talk in school. I just don't understand. A few weeks ago we were texting eachother non stop... and after he came back from florida, he just stopped talking to me. Was it something that I did wrong? Anyway.. afterschool I walked around mainst because I needed a new bathing suit. I walked into Joyce leslie and they didn't have the kind of bathing suit that I wanted so I wlked to old navy and I found a nice polka dotted brown bathing suit. Before going to the beach, I'm going to lose some weight !!! But it's not easy at all.... Must work hard must work hard !!!

Lol by the way, that picture of me up there was from a week ago :)

Mets Game !

Wooo!I just came back from the Mets Game. It was the first time I ever went inside a baseball stadium. It was huge! And let me tell you , the food there was expensive!!! A hotdog was 4.75 -_-. I really wished the ball wouldve flown to my side so i could catch it ! Anyways gotta go shower!

lonely

I feel so so lonely. I don't think I've ever felt this lonely before. Its so not fair. I feel like no one sees me. Sigh so lonely and sad..

hot day

Hehe Took some pictures during chemistry!
Woah today was HOT! Worst thing was that I had to walk around in hot hot main street with people's sweaty arms touching mine ToT. I was so tired today too. Last night I couldn't even sleep so I decided to watch some ghost videos on youtube. I also did a research on the ouija board which is used to communicate with the dead. It seriously freaked me out! I was paranoid for the entire night. So this weekend Im going to the beach to get a tan with Helen! I can't wait :D First I must get thin that means I'll be eating one meal a day. I have to get skinny before all the hot guys get taken away from mehh!!!! You know I can't let that happen!!! I must find meself a hot koreano :D Hmm I still have to buy a bathing suit... Oh btw, tomorrow is the mets game !! yipeeeee!!! It will be the first time I visit a stadium. weeweeeeeeeeee. SO bored rightnow. I seriously need a spark in my life. It's getting so boring it's killing me. What should i do?And oh my goshh!!! This morning, my school was talking about the new swine flu that came from mexico. Oh noooo!!!! Everyone in the school was ordered to wash there hands consistently and no intimate contacts haha. Gosh can you believe that the virus came from pigs!? Jeeeeeeeeeeebus! They're revenging on us ;o;

PS*** Like my new song?

HIGHH!

Hello fellow viewers! I decided to not be lazy today and write a blog! Yesterday, I finally tried weeed ! I know i know, im such a bad girl. >< But I really wanted to experience it at least once. Well First I felt like I was falling. My eyelids felt very very heavy and it became very hard to keep my eyes open ! I started laughing at everything and found everything extremely funnnny. So yea.. It was cool. HMM. THe weather is great! LALA im happy imhappy !!!! Lets be happy together !!! HAHA! O yea, I took that pic of me when i was high ^_^

another post?

Hi again. Just wanted to write a blog before drifting to sleep. Im thinking about a lot of stuff again. I wish I had the power to read peoples minds so id know wat they're thinking. Well who doesn't? God damit im so tiredof guessing what the heck is running through peoples minds. Im so frikken stupid. I know, you're probably tired of hearing this.. But I can't help it. I feel trapped i n a jar. Everyone around me looks so happy. When will it be my turn?! God give me some justice please! I want to know the answers to my uquestions. Please give me a good sign. Please make things go alright. I've been so good lately... sigh why do I like to think so much? I blab a lot too. Damn it life sucks. I wish I was gone. I wish I didn't exist. Then people would be so much happier. And no im not trying to sound emo its the truth.

blogging on the bus =)

Heylo! Sorry for not updating! I was either too lazy or busy =( anyway, I decided to make a blog because steven said so. Anyways, im on the bus right now. The weather is beautiful. And omgosh there is this cutie on the bus! Hahaha . Anyways, school was okay today. Nothing really happened. Afterschool sujeong and I went to quicklys to buy bubble tea. And then blah blah. Hmm.. I've been okay this week guess. I sleep extremely early now. Like at 8 or 9 =) I know, im such a good girl! Someone please give me a candy?? Nthing much to write about.. Just wish he wud talk to me... he got me so confused. Man guys confuse me! And they say we're confusing. Why ant there be any simple guys????!!! Or mayb its jsut me. Nobody wants me..

Life without the Internet

IS HELL!!!! So yesterday morning, when I woke up to use my wonderful computer, the cable had stopped. Reason why?! Was because my mommy had paid time warner cable LATE ! So I had to suffer the whole day watching movies that I've watched a million times. I watched Iron man, spongebob, the devil wears prada, good luck chuck, and the notebook! Jeebus ! I couldn't sleep and ate like a fucking fatass! Imagine having no internet for the rest of my life?! NOOOOOOOOO~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'd rather die !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As soon as my internet started working, it was like a light shining from heaven. Like god heard my prayer and gave me light again. Wonderful just wonderful!!!!I hope I get skinny before getting back to schoool.

UGH!!!!!

I don't even feel like going outside anymore because I feel like a total fatass!!! I'm gonna starve myself and at least lose 5 pounds before I go back to school.

최밌어 :D

Today was fun! Dominique came to my house and we had a blast.

Poooooooool

HelloOoo. So yesterday was a very cool day. I got so much better at pool ! Anyways, I went to Jon's house at about 7 and we went to the pool hall. Nick Frank Jon Uma and the others were there. I beat Frank 2 times!! and he wasn't even going easy on me :D yayayyayay. The funny thing was when we were walking out of the parking lot, the alarm rang off and Frank Uma and I started running our asses off !!!! HAHAHAHAA. It was hilarious. Then Nick and Jon was like wtf why are they running. And after that, we went to a viet place in main st to eat. I didnt eat because I didnt want to get fat hehehe. And after that they brought me and frank to the bus stop and frank bought me home. How sweet. SO right now I just woke up and my whole back is frikken sore as a mother ******! Time to go pick Dominique from her stop because she needs to comepick her dvds up :D

Fun day!!

Hey Hey Hey. First off, I'd like to say that the weather was wonderful today. It was 64 degrees. I woke up at 6am in the morning and kinda drifted back into sleep again. Then I woke up at 9 and decided to turn on the computer. I then thought to myself, what am I going to do today? The weather is just so beautiful I don't want to stay home. I then decided to aim Dominique and Anney to come out. And let me tell you this. I know that because there is no school, we aren't supposed to use the student metro. But i did it anyway because I didn't want to use my 2 $ :) Cheap? Yes. But that is because I'm broke ! So as sooon as I got on the bus, I placed my student metro into the bus thingy :) Yes thingy. The bus driver then said ," EXCUSE ME YOU CAN'T USE THE STUDENT METRO BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH". It was so embarrasing. I had to go around asking for change. But whatever. Then I texted Dominique so she could get on the same bus as me. The same thing happened to her. I know, it's totally my fault, since I didnt warn her about it.. but it was funny :) Im Evilllllll haaha. So after that, we met up with anney in front of flushing library. They didn't know eachother but became quick friends in a snap. We went to eat korean food in our usual spot. After that we were so clueless as to where to go next. We then decided to play handball. We played handball for about 5 hours in maple park and had tons of fun.. My hand was sooo swollen ... (very hard to type right now) . My feet hurt because I was wearing heels but whatever, I still won !!! It was very fun :) anddddddd...... he texted me today yay :) First time we spoke on the phone ! Btw I also borrowed a sats book from thelibrary because I really need it. My scores are horrendous. -______-. I also borrowed 3 books. You know what? Reading really is fun =) I wonder what I'll be doing tomorrow...... heeeheeeheeeeeee.

:-*

So today was such a awesome day! Him & I were texting eachother, as usual. He's so adorable :) During the last period, he finally texted me and guess what !? He told me that he liked me :p First he texted me and said " Ammmyy" and then i texted him back saying "what?" then he texted me saying " i need you" and i got a bit confused. I asked him what he needed me for and he said " i want youuuuu....." and i was like awwwwwww thats just so sweet. Anyways, I hope....... things progress a little faster? hahas. Anyways, afterschool, SJ, WIlly, and I went to korean rest again to eat. THis time it was aother restaurant. When we went downstairs to find a seat we realized that the food there was way more expensive than thelast one we went to . We decided to go to the other one ! but omfg it was soo embarrasing.... >< style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">PLUS i get to see him!! Super yay me!

sometimes...

people come and go in our lives. That's just the way it is. Even if you think they are going to stay forever, prepare to be disappointed. We live in a really ironic world. Where anything can happen, even when least expected. Have you ever met someone and thought to yourself that you'd be with them forever? That they'd never ever leave you. Its scary but true. But then again, sometimes they walk out of your life for good. It will cause you pain for a while, but that's okay because always remember,time heals. Life is so demented and hard to understand. You feel what you feel, though you can't explain it. Ammy just get over it. He doesn't care. Why would he care. Why do this to yourself. Ugh nobody understands. I wish he could feel my pain. I have one question to ask those who are reading. Is it really possible to completely erase someone from your life? Sigh. Anyways, like my oppa says, tears are way too precious. Don't cry over something that's not worth crying for. Don't know why im writing this, but I just haad so much to get off of my chest. I wish I could understand myself more.... and the people around me. What in th e world is going on? I don't want to be here anymore...time to doze off and hope I never wake up.

SO BORED!

Okay so that stupid little stick figure is supposed to be dancing... but I guess it's not so whatever. Anyways, today is a saturday. A very boring boring saturday. There's nothing to do. Everyone's dead. Waaa.. If only I was 18. I'd have my own apartment, my own job, and my own car. Wouldn't that be great. I'd at least be able to drive to Barnes and Nobles to buy a frikken book. I'd be able to go to Starbucks just to buy drink. I'd be able to waste gas driving around Manhatten. I'd be able to shop whenever I wanted to and spend as much as I want ( well of course not or else i'd be broke ass hell and not be able to pay the rent). Im sure everyone has once thought about their future and how it would be like. Like where would you live? Who would you be married to? What kind of job would you have? Yea... I think of that a lot when I'm bored. Anyway I wish i had something to do right now. Im so dam bored its driving me nuts. There's no one to talk on aim either. waaa im such a loner :[

비빔밥!

Yay! So today at school, we made bibimbab in our korean class. It is a very popular dish in Korea. It tasted good, but I don't know why I didn't refill :OWell nothing much really happened today. It was just as normal as any other day. SoOo.. I like this kid.. but hes in 10th grade... and he's so adorable :) I hope to get to talk to him tomorrow! He's so shy :D Anyways, watching death note right now! this was such a short post but oh wellies .(By the way, the picture above of the food is not the finished product. We were supposed to mix them up!)