Havent updated in a whileee

Well lets just say I found a job and have been working there for almost a week :) I get my pay this wednesday how exciting !!! It's time to get a new computer. I also opened up a checking account with Bank of America. I even have my own debit card now yay ! I'm thinking about getting a MSI wind notebook, same 10inch notebook that my english teacher has. Ahhh I cant wait to put my hands on it !!!! I wish school wasn't so soon. I don't feel ready at all. This job has made me lost so much weight it's not even funny. That's a good thing I guess. Better than staying home playing computer all day wasting time. Ahhh there are so many problems right now. Only MONEY can solve. >.<

KIYOOT

Hey there guys ! I'm very excited now because I've finally set foot on a goal! Okay so yesterday, aug 5, fiona and I came up with this great idea of creating an online shop that sells accessories, clothing, plushes, cups, etc. It took a while before we could come up with the name KIYOOT. The planning is still in the process. Things are going really well. We came up with endless ideas in just one night! Fiona will be making the plushes, cellphone chains, accessories etcetc and I will be creating the Tee's, tops, and some plushies. All of this will require a good sewing machine! So I went on google, got some results... and decided that Brother CS000i would be the best beginner affordable, best rated electric sewing machine! Just talking about this makes me all excited inside. So the plan is... first we will start on SOOMPI. We will use soompi to advertise and attract buyers. Fiona and I will get a part time job so we can buy the items we need. In the future, if this goes well, we will then create an online shop. We will rent a studio where we complete all of our work there. This of course is going to be a longggggg process. Im gonna need to find myself a web designer :T. Not hard, MASAKI! But hes one lazy mother effing ______. I've already decided to use sujeong as one of my clothing models(because shes so damn skinny). My clothes will have a sense of cute korean style. Similar to the clothing you see on yesstyle.com. I will update soon :)

yawnn*

Hmm so yesterday was a pretty bad day for me. I was supposed to go to an interview (The Lite Choice icecream store). However when I got to the subway, my unlimited week metro expireddd.. What angered me most was that my mom said that it still worked... I was beyond furious. They called me around 1:30 and asked if I was still going to go. I said no. What a good chance i miss. I could have been hired and working right now !!! :( really really sad. Then this morning something unfortunate happened again. My computer wouldn't turn on!! I really thought it was the end for my computer and that I'd really have to buy a new one again. Thankfully around 9pm it finally turned on ! :) It was really a power problem. I realized that I really can't live without a computer. You might as well tell me to go die instead ! Thank goodness god realizes that and decided to let my computer work. Hahaha. Once I do get a job, I'm going to save up money so I can buy a MSI notebook. Its tiny and has a lot of gb ! annnnnddd its PINK!!!!

lucky day !!!

Since today was such a good day, I decided to update :) Btw I don't work at the promoting thing anymore... it was just too hard... making sales was soo difficult. Anyway, today I went to visit my dad. I love him!!! Even though he nags a lot... well I'm currently addicted to cash for words doubler ( those scratch card stuff). I won 50 bucks today from it can you believe it !! I never thought I'd win anything from those stuff. Helen wasted like 40$ on it but didn't win anything ;( Hopefully she wins tomorrow. So lucky because i bought out 10$ today and came home with 50$!!! Well i bought new circle lens hehehe. Another great thing that happened is that O red mango emailed me back for an interview !!! omgosh can you believe it?"!?!?! I also began talking to one of my old friends again... he messaged me on fb! I didnt even know I had him on facebook!! because he had taeyangs picture as a default hahaha. Life sure is full of suprises.. dannggg ittt me and helen are aobsesssseddd with thoseeeee. PLEASE LET ME WIN MORE TOMORROW PLOXX!!!

Tired of blogging

I will blog when something exciting or important happens :) Had fun today though with Jody and her family. Rained a lot.... = =

fantaasticcc day!!!

Finally FINALLY!! HIRED @@@!!! Can you believe it? neither can I :) Well let me tell you what happened.

So this morning I woke up around 6am and watched some korean drama and ate ramen. Waited for Dominique but she didnt come so I left. Turns out she came late at 10. She was supposed to come to my house at 9;30. So I got there kinda early around 10:49 and went into starbucks(the interview is held in starbucks). I started getting nervous because first of all, I didnt know who the people that were going to interview were and how they look like, and second, I wasn't sure where to sit and wait ! So then after that, I finally saw these two people that looked like they were going to be interviewed. I asked them and hallalujah! Then this really pretty mixed chinese/british girl sat down and I spoke to her (thinking she was a person who wanted to go for an interview). She was sooo nice and happy and smileyyyy. She looked like juliet from romeo and juliet 1960's version. She looked at my resume and everything and bammmmm she said i was hired. I was sooo shocked. I didnt even know she was interviewing me :O. Well the people that work there are really nice and friendly. They make you feel really welcomed. I love them already ! So I saw them rehearse and practice their speeches and boy are they good. Thank the lord for our outgoing personalities. Btw, the people I work with are sooo hot. The guys are hot and the girls are really pretty. They told me that I will be training on monday. I'm sooo excited !!! :)I really hope I sell.... i really do

So excited !!!!

Well guess what !? Luck as finally chose me !!! Isn't it funny how when I needed a job and spent the whole entire day looking for one I get no calls whatsoever? And today, after leaving voicemails for the jobs from craigslist, I get all 3 calls back. I believe these jobs are perfect for me because it doesn't require me to use any cash register or memorize anything. I just have to be who I am. Outgoing, talkative, and hardworking ! :) Im sooo nervous. When one of the lady called me I was so nervous I kept studdering. Well the three interviews will be held at 11,3,and5. I hope at least one of them takes hires mee ! :) Im so glad im an outgoing person. Oh please please god I reallly need this job!!!!

Bad luck :(

grrrr I don't know but I think i have really bad luck. Like gambling, making friends, jobs, school, and you know when you get a bowl of something and you are supposed to pick somethng out from it? Well im the type of person that would pick something bad. Ugh !! And I know you're gona say "oh thats because you have to start thinking positive". I doo!! I really do. And everytime I do, I always get disappointed. Jeez its not fair T^T Life isn't fair. Some people just always get what they want. It's like everything is handed to them. When will my luck begin to change :T. Btw today I went to chinatown to hang out with jody and fay and it was fun :) , even though it was drizzling. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . Why am i so impulsive and sssssssssssssssssstupiddddddddd.........?

Vintage♥

I loveee vintage clothing :) Yesterday after I left brooklyn I met up with Helen in chinatown ... after getting her prescriptions at the doctor, we went to soho. I loveee soho because they have so much cute vintage clothing! I loveeee floral dresses and accessories ! Damn, my taste in clothing just keeps changing ! I still love korean style and such :) I also bought a plaid shirt for just 10$ because it was on sale !!! and guess what? I LOVE IT! So this morning...after waking up at 11, my mom wanted to kick me out of the house so I went to queens center mall to buy new aqua marine circle lens. It's pretty cool :D I was going to get the blue one what everyone has it -_-. It was soooo hot tooo. Grrr. I spent 140 something dollars already in 2 days =T . That's not good. I reallllly need starbucks to hire meee. They are going to give me a call tomorrow... hopefully :x

Cant sleep in the heat.

Hey guys. Im currently at a friends house sleeping over. I was supposed to sleepover at jodys but then she wasn't going to go home so I couldn't. So yesterday morning, I woke up around 12pm. Then got readyy and met up with marine at roosevelt avenue. We took the train together to times sq to meet up with Junho and Devon. We originallly wanted to watch I love you beth cooper but the others thought it would be corny so we didnt... plus the ratings was 4.8. We then decided to watch 500 days of summer. Honestly, in my opinion i thought it was a pretty boring movie... but whatever marine and devon liked it. Btw, masaki and samuel were also in the same theater. I saw samuel and asked him how the trip was and stuff... it was pretty awkward. And omg.. next time... I am never going to meet up someone from the internet because junho looked nothing like his pictures lmao.... ugh. He tried to hold my hand while we were watching the movie !!! and his breath omg his breath stinks !!! The whole day I was trying to avoid him. i know im so mean.... lol but then I just don't want him to get any wrong ideas. well after the movies we went to a japanese book store andn it was pretty cool. Then we went to eat. didnt really do much but i still had fun. kinda. Wouldve been better if junho wasnt there lol. hmm... Feeling pretty fat right now. I hate that im so petite ughhhhhhhh hate hate hate hate hate it. Anyway... slept for liek an hour and couldn't sleep anymore because its soo... hot in here........... i rather sleep in the cold then sleep in the heat. I can't take heat. my friend is currently sleeping like a pig and im on her laptop. Whats there to doooo? i still have like 5 or 6 hours to kill ..... my mom thinks im in six flags right now but im not . Arghhhhhhh I wish I was home right now. I dont like sleepovers taht arent planned =T. No ones online to talk to right now....sigh

Coffee Addiction @_@

I woke up from a very short nap about 30 minutes ago because I was sooo tired. I woke up at 4am this morning... played some games, watched some korean dramas, and walked out at around 9am to get ready to go to manhatten to hand in my starbucks apps. I had a total of 3 apps and gave it to 3 different starbucks that were near eachother in lexington. jesus, manhatten sure has a lot of starbucks o.O. It was like 3 starbucks on one block. Welll yea, I walked a lottt today.... I drank a small vanilla latte, then a large ice coffee. Too much caffeine.... :( I hope they give me a call back!! *crosses fingers. Jeannie also said that theres this icecream place where she works at that is hiring. She said I can take her place when she quits. woooot. Sooo weak and tired right now.... maybe because its lack of nutrition? err i dont know. Anyway...................... thats it..

Korean style?! American style?!

For reason I just seem to love both !! The korean style gives off a Cute yet fashionable& unique look. The american style gives off a more mature, fashionable, and fresh look. I'm currently on Soompi just looking around the forums and looking at pictures. The clothing are soooo cuteeee. Anyway, I can't wait till my hair grows longer. I really want Kang min kyungs old haircut :D

I found a kitty!!

Okay so it is currently 5:24am and I am still up. Around 4am , I've been hearing kitten cries so I decided to walk out into my front steps to check it out. To my suprise, a kitty popped out from the bush! I guess the mommy cat left it there all alone or something because a few days ago, there was a cat who always hung around in our front yard. At that moment, I didn't really know what to do so I decided to bring it home... I placed it in the tub. It was really stinky. It smelled like FEET !!! It KEPT crying. I really didn't know what to do. I quickly went on the computer and did some research. Unfortunately, there was nothing I could do. I mean, what if it had rabies or fleas? I can't risk that =/. So before I put it back outside again, I took some pictures of it and a video. I feel bad, I truly do... but I have an allergic reaction to cats.. that's why I gave away my old cat mimi :(. I really hope nice people find it and take care of it !!! (btw isnt the kitty cute?!?!)

one more thing. Have you guys ever looked at a word that you've used your whole life and found it weird? it happens to me all the time. Like right now.. I look at the word "surprise" and find it extremely weird. And dude.. this whole time I thought it was spelled suprise. lol

Reminiscing

Not sure if I spelled it correctly. Anyway, I'm such an insomniac it's not even funny. Nowadays i've been sleeping at 5am.. sometimes even later until 3 in the afternoon. Every time my schedule goes regular, it always seem to fuck up on its own again. I blame the computer.. . . and the afternoon naps. I don't know about you, but I just love taking naps. I find naps more pleasant then actually sleeping at night. Naps are addicting. It's hard to control. It's like after you come home from a long day at school, you just want to jump into your wonderful bed and nap like you've never napped before. The dreadful thing is waking up 4 hours later and staying on your computer till 2am and then sleeping. That's when your schedule starts to fuck up. damn it I really hate this. I don't like waking up late in the afternoon and everyone is like outside and i'm stuck inside the house while its sooo beautiful outside. I need help. Anyway, I've finally finished filling out my starbucks application and I plan on giving it in on.. monday? I filled out 3 to give it to three different starbucks:) Hopefully they hire me. This is really been stressing me.

I've also went on the east west website a few moments ago and saw the new pictures of the people who went to japan. I'm glad they're having fun. I wish I was there having fun with them. That reminds me.. I'm so excited for our college trip next year !!!! omg !!! I'm gonna become a SENIOR!! It's so surreal to me. It seems like yesterday I was just a little kindergartener... playing with the fake stoves jumping around laughing ...taking naps....waiting for mommy to pick me up.

I just love reminiscing.. but sometimes it makes me sad. I miss the old me very much. That innocent ammy =(

Well I'm currently watching Confessions of a Shopaholic. It's pretty good :) Going to sleep after it.

:)

Never walked so much before!

Honestly... my legs felt like they were going to break off. Today I walked to the train station with anney and that was already 10 blocks. Then we decided to walk to broadway[in elmhurst] to eat and walk around the park... and that was 5 blocks. Then our stomachs started hurting really bad, so we decided to walk back to my house. 15 blocks T^T... Then we walked back to queens center 15 more blocks.... walked around a bit.. then walked back to the train station 6 blocks ...met up with devon... we got off at 77 lexington.. then walked to 86 st... We didn't want to take the train to Time sq because we are cheap so we walked all the way to times sq.. 40 something blocks.......... then walked around times sq.... like 20 blocks jeebus. Then we took the train home and i had to walk 10 more blocks back home. oh my lord my legs are sooo tireddddd. Btw, the japanese food place near the regal theater sucks :x I wouldn't recommend anyone to go there. Anyway above is a pic of the doggy we met while walking those 40 something blocks. She was sooo cuteeeee. She kept looking back at us and her fur was soo soft. The owner was a bitchh !! She was pulling on the leash so hard. We felt so bad for the doggy.. we really wanted to take it home :[...

There is one thing that I have to change...

And that would be my sleeping schedule. I mean, it's getting ridiculous. To the point where I go to sleep at 7Am and wake up at 5 in the afternoon ... and starts it all over again. I've stayed home for the past 2 days... eating& getting fatter than ever. I wonder if im still going to six flags with my family this sunday. I really hope I do because it is going to be a blast ! I love having fun ^_^. AnyhoOo.. I can't wait till my hair gets longer !!! I'm even thinking about getting extensions... but then thats kinda scary .. washing your fake hair !! and what if someone pulls it off??!! That's going to be sooo embarrassing. Damn.. I've already wasted like half of my vacation. Right now at this moment, I wish I had money to buy clothes from this korean site. I love korean clothing !! It's so... cute and pretty at the same time !!!! I really really want the sweater from koreaaa >.<. I also want a Wii. I'm like dying to get wii fit because its soo fun. There are so many things I want to do.... and they all go back to money :[ If I had lots&lots&lots&lots&lots of Money I'd:

1)Rent a nice small studio.(most people would want to a humongo mansion but I'd like to live in a small , pretty, cozy, apartment ^_^)

2)SHOPP. Seriously, what girl can resist shopping!?

3)Open a bakery shop: and sellll delicious pastries !!

4)Travel around the world !!! (especially KOREA!): yes yes yes you heard me. I'm a sagittarius.. therefore I'm the most adventurous out of all the signs !!

5) Buy Wii !!! and all the games that I like ^_^

6)New Laptop,Camera, itouch,iphone, speakers,computer,big flatscreen tv,etcetcetc. You name it !!

7)A PUPPPY !!! yes yes yes an adorable chihuahua... I will name it Chi :D

8) All circle lens :D All different colors ^_^

9)Did I say shopping? :D

OOOH one more thing, as for the apartment. I'd like to design it ! The bathroom would have a spongebob design, my room would have like a fairytale design, living room would have like a space design, and the kitchen would have japanese style design ^_^

There's more that I just can't think of right now.

okay that's all folks !

Yesterday was a bad/good day :O

Well as you guys can see, yesterday was July 4. For some reason, when I woke up and turned on the computer, it wasn't working. I believe it was because my anti virus program deleted the virus along with a very important file :(. I met up with dominique later on, walked to elmhurst park and then took the train all the way to coney island. Jody told me that there would be fireworks in coney island so I went there hoping to see nice fireworks... or maybe even bump into her. We walked around... having the urge to go on the rides but didnt have money :(. Walked around the beach. It was very depressing for me. At that moment, I really wish he was by my side. I wish I couldve sat near the shore with him and put my head on his shoulder. I felt very lonely but at the same time calm & peaceful. I then gave it a lot of thought. Well enough about the sad stuff. After all the walking and such, we took the train to 18avenue to get the windows xp cd from danny and then accidently took the train to Bronx. I realized we were lost when i saw stops i've never seen before lol. We got off the train and started walking home... then these guys were following us. Yes they were cute and everything but we started running!!! they were like " hey don't be scared. We are asians !!!" hahahaa it was funny. ^___^. Well good thing I fixed my computer... but I lost all the memory in it. I had to reformat everything. I even lost the pictures of him :(.... this has to be a sign. Please let me forget about you as soon as possible. I hate having to endure this pain everyday.

beach<3

Hey guys ! I was going to update later but I took a nap! This morning, dominique arrived at my house around 12pm and we headed right to the beach. When I walked out of my house, it did not look sunny at all!!! I thought it was going to rain too :[ . The sun then started to come out while we were waiting for the bus :D!!!!Damn, while i was on the bus, the scenery was gorgeous. It felt very different. I dont know how to explain it . It just didn't feel like I was in queens. The houses/apartments were very very gorgeous. Especially the ones that were in front of the beach. Did I mention that the apartments were cheap? Hahaha. I would totally live there but it would take a long time getting to school. So I went into the water and it wasnt that bad hehehe... at first I was scared because I dont know how to swim hehehehee. We go a tan tooo... I want to get tanner. hehehehe. Well I had fun!!!


Hmm tomorrow is July 4... :[

New Layout!

Hi again ! Like my new layout? I've decided since so many people decorate their blogs and make it all pretty and stuff, why not try it out? I thought this layout had a pretty nice vibe to it. Looks very calm and beautiful. I love nature , it's lovely. Well it's currely 3:58 am and I am still wake. Shouldn't be suprising because that's what I always do >< . Anyway,tomorrow I'm going to the beach with dominique, CAN'T wait ! heehee. I will update tomorrow :) Leave a comment on what you think about this layout!

what a crazyyy night

Hey guys. I came home an hour ago.. from flushing... from drinking.. i know omfg... I wasn't even supposed to drink..
okay anyways.
I woke up like at 2 something today, no wait i mean yesterday.
I met up with anney and wendy at 5 and we went to queens center mall.
After that we took the bus straight to flushing and I went to get the circle lens from sujeong[ gosh i love you so much] since my old ones ripped ! (I know... i destroy everything) Then after that we went to TB park... and jeezus, people there are mean. especially the girls. They swear they are so cool smoking and spitting. I think its just plain disgusting. And she had the nerve to say that we suck. Dude I couldn't even see the ball!!!! so after that... anney wanted to go to her friend , tiffany's party which was in front of TB park.. in Ji mei whatever. And you guys know I dont drink.. but then i was forced to since anney paid 15$ for me and I didnt want her money to go to waste soI drank some... THen i started feeling really tipsy and stuff. Anney and I thenwent downstairs for some air.. and omg after that we came bck upstairs and wendy was passed the FUCK out. Foam started coming out from her mouth and we were speechlesss. We didn't knw what to do!!! everyone was watching and she was totally unconscious. If I were her, I'd be sooo embarrased. Everyone started to come and watch and oh em geee........ they finally called a cab for her to go home. This is a lesson to be learned. Aiyaaaaaa. Not even tired right now. Stupid mosquitoes flying everywhere wth ! I can't wait till this friday comes......... beach :D


July 4 is coming up.. I really want to go see the fireworks with him.. I miss him

Very boring boring day at home

So yesterday, dominique and i were talking about finding jobs in queens center mall... so I told her to aim me this morning but she didnt. jeez... shes so unreliable. I've been ditched by her at least 5 times. She always changes her mind in the end. And im not the only person that thinks that way. holy crap. How can someone be this lazy. Anyways, now im stuck home.. boredddd and shit I wish devon was in newyork so we'd hang out :( . Dang it.. having sudden mixed emotions right now. :(

its okay. its alright. i put the pain away and let it slide

I did it. I finally left hot&crusty. Although It was a waste of my time training there, I gained experience... and free foood ! mwuahahaa. Well I left early today.. mylast day there, and after I got off the train, I went to the chinese bakery near my house and asked if they were hiring. They said yes and tehy will call me :] great i found a part time job. I also applied to mandeee and stop and shop. Two jobs!!! Woot. It's raining right now.

Dang today I was wear shorts and this mexican on the 6 train had the nerve to try to touch my ass

right or wrong?

thanks masaki for picking me up from work and hanging out with me. You made me feeel a ton better than i was feeling yesterday.

no words can express how sad i am today

It was just yesterday, when i was happy and hyper. But today, everything seems so dark and blue around me. While I was at work, Jimmy, one of the guys who work there[and gives me and attitude], told me that i couldnt use the FUCKING cash register because ON FUCKING FRIDAY THERE WAS 30$ FUCKING DOLLARS MISSING. WELL EVERYONE MKAES MISTAKES ONCE IN A FUCKING WHILE. SO I HAD TO STAND THERE NOT DOING ANYTHING, BUT MAKING COFFEEE AND I FUCKING FEEL LIKE SHIT AND I HATE MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND BECAUSE HE DOESNT EVEN TRY TO COMFORT ME S FUCK MY LIFE X200000000000000000 TIMES. FUCK FUCK FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.


its fucking over

Good day at work!

Today was a pretty good day at work. Everything went on smoothly... and the mean coworkers werent in today yay! I didn't make any mistake but too bad the manager wasnt there to see. -_-.... Woooh Im much faster with the cash register... :] lalala so boredd.. mommy is making curry chicken yumm too bad im not eating any.. i have to lose a few more pounds ^_^....

extremely tiring day

I got up at 6:30 this morning, got out at 7:00 and arrived at school at 8. Didn't really do much... stayed there until 10 something I believe and then left with masaki, samuel, and alvin... well supposedly supposed to be only masaki, but the other two tagged along. It was a ... very awkward day.. pretty sad dayalso. I kept bumping into him today in the hallways lol.. :( I felt very uneasy while we were walking.. I felt really bad. But then again.. why should I feel bad? I didnt do anything wrong. I've put into a lot of energy into our relationship. So then we took the train together and departed... masaki and i got off at bryant park and the others went to chinatown. We went to starbucks to eat yogurt [ i had to feed his lazy ass] and nintendo world right after. mwuhahaa nintendo world was fun because we played wii and omgg they have really cute tshirts. I'm going to buysome definitely when i get mypaycheck hehe. I will be getting a mario shirt, peach, and toad. I also have to revisit that lush store to buy a dream cream heeeheeeheeeeeeee. ANYWAY... I dont know if I made the right decision getting back with him... I felt really bad because I once told him that I won't give up on us.. and I did. I hurt him really bad, but so did he. He hurt me by not showing that he cares :(... making me sad everyday.. confused and not knowing if he really likes me ... but after this I can tell he does. I had never seen him so sad before.. and today was the first time. Funny how he thought I was avoiding him... because i thought he was avoiding me.

Today was a very clumsy day at work for me. I made a lot of mistakes.. thats because I was so tired... having to wake up at 6:30 ... no rest... didn't really eat much and walked a tonnnnn.

It was also very hot.

Time to go look at fashion blogs :}

won't be able to update much since I've been soo busy these past few weeks. I really can't wait to go to 6flags!

a hot mess

As you can see from the first picture , I look very tired and sad... :[ Don't ask why..

I met up with sj at 1 and then went to toto's. Yes toto AGAIN... yea you guys should know by now how much i love sticky pics >.<>.<...

After that I went straight to work. I dont know why but I was prettty clumsy today. I kept putting milk when it was iced tea -_-... maybe because I love ice coffee so much pwuehehe. So tomorrow I have to go back to school to get my report.. that means I will have to see him.. sigh... I'm such a bad decision maker. What should I say to him? I wish I could just pour out my feelings and tell him that he makes me feel like shit everyday.

I miss you so much right now.. and & wish very much to speak to you. You have no idea how much.........forget it

Getting better at my job!

First of all, i'd like to say that I am veryyyy happy because My package from yesstyle finally came !! yay !! [clothes ♥]. At first I was very worried because I thought I'd never get used to my job. Suprisingly, it's getting really easy ! And this is my 4th time working there. I really hope I get this job because I m doing very good and the customers seem to really like me :) . I really like my co workers because they are so nice and fun. The weather is getting better and better.

This morning I broke up with him... I don't know if my decision was right or wrong. I really don't want to let him go... but the thing is, if I don't, I will just let myself get hurt even more. I really hate making decisions ! -_____-". Hmm what should I wear tomorrow? I dont think I will be able to update as often as I used to because I am very busy these days =[ Good thing dominique& i are hitting the beach this weeeekend !! yayyy. I really want to get a tan :]. I really like the ice coffees that I make, they are sooOo... YUMMMY!!!


Well... time to shower :] Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Sometimes love comes around...just get backup when it knocks you down.

Today isnt exactly the best day. I got up at 1pm and took the train to my job place. Boy was it hard... I didnt know how to work the cash register... im so damn clumsy and I hate it. I have to worry about how to make cappucinos and expresso. People who work there are so rude and ignorant. Met up with devon after and walked around. It was avery boring day. Got caught by police try to get into turnstill with devon at the same time -_- those assholes. Now I have a 100$ warrant just great.

My job place called me and left a voicemail but it was in fucking spanish. Maybe it wasnt for me...
omg
=[

sigh But i do think I got hired though... anyways good luck to me... I can't give up!!!!!!!!!!!

Sneaking into theaters, jumping turnstills, & training at my first job!

My oh my... boy do i have a lot to write. Yesterday was an amazing day.. however I was too lazy to write a blog since I got home very late. Basically, devon and I met up yesterday.. then met up with marine and went to the city. We were supposedly supposed to go to marines mom's place but a car crashed into the entrance so we weren't able to go in. How ironic. Then we decided to walk around the stores. We went inside H&M, Victoria's secret, and forever 21. After that we decided to eat. Man the food in the city are expensive..but delicious. Anyways, we walked around to look for jobs. Most of them told us to print out an app. online and bring it back to them. Wtf thats mad work ! lols. I filled out like 1 application for starbucks. Then marine had to leave. After that devon and I went to this rest to ask for a job. Coincidently, this owner of Hot&crusty told us that we could work at his place ! how awesome is that?! After that we just snuck into a movie theater in times sq and watched drag me to hell =) that movie was soooooooo damm FUNNY....


Okay so that was yesterday...

This morning... Devon texted me a t around 9 am... I went back to sleep and overslept. When she arrived at roosevelt avenue, I was still in bed. I hurried and met up with her. We arrived at the hot & crusty place and sat that for about 15 mins.. then they trained us. I personally think that I will like the job a lot . However, the problem is memorizing the whole menu is just tooo much! Its just too complex... So i made coffee, ice coffee, iced tea... and stuff. It was great. After that we met up with masaki,, walked around, went to starbucks, and then snuck into the movies again !!! :D ... It was awesome. We watched the hangover and it was so funny. After that masaki had to leave so devon and i went to this place to eat chicken wraps. Then after that we just went home. I just finished showering... and writing all the menu onto flashcards so i cud memorize them. Tomorrow I have to go back to hot and crusty to train ! for 3 hours =)... after 10 days, hopefully, I will be able to get the job!!! :) GOODLUCK TO MEE!!



btw I miss samuel :[

Weird but fun day

Today was a very interesting day. I woke up at 7 something Am to get the student metro from anna... went to sleep for like 20 minutes. Got ready and met my bebe in front of the school. Then Bebe, me, sam, alvin, and wei went to sams house for a bit so they could fix their hair >.>.... And after we took the train to chinatown. Stopped at elizabeth center first then walked to vivi to get a drink. Then tehy went to HK station to eat. Later I met up with jody, fay, anney, and fay's friend at ec. :]

Our relationship is growing stronger :) We linked arms for the first time today yay us!
ahhi like my bebe very much.
After I departed with them, jody and fay and i walked to seaport. Then my bebe aimed me and said he wanted to meet me up at seaport :) SO he got there and we went to watch these 2 contortionists perform. It was very cool! It was a shame that not many people clapped

well samuel and i went back to ct and i met up with anney. lalala


anney , martin, and i then went to viet rest to eat and went to grand park tos it for a second. After that we took the train to queens. It was so funnnn. I have really cool friends :)

Anney went to my house and we had sooo much fun. I did her hair. We went outside and she pushed me on the shopping cart. ahh :}

meeting sj tomorrow. Can't wait :)

Staying home on a rainy day

I didn't go out today because of the rain and they decided they didnt want to go to manhatten anymore. Im sitll mad that i lost my student metro. Ive already wasted 12$ just on the dam bus ! they're in flushing right now.. toto'ing -_-. Grrr.. stop raining gosh.. ruining my summerT_T. Dam I need to find a job fast. Stupid syep said i cudnt because the deadline was june2. OH well... Just goottta keeeeeeeeeep looking. But seriously, next week if the weather gets better, I'm definitely going to the beach :)

Last day of regents!

So like I really wanted to update yesterday but there was just too much going on. Stupid blogspot just deleted my original post so I m gonna have to retype it. Ill just tell u what i did today. Chem regents. After that went to flushing mall with samuel, alvin, sam, luis, raymond, willy, and masaki. hmmmmmmm after that went to pool wtih luis and met up wtih jeanni eand dominique after to take totos. Wow im such an lazy ass. Can't wait till tomorrow !

What a beautiful wonderful day !!!

No such words can explain how happy I am today. Today was such a great day, although it rained. It was great today because 1.School is officially over!. 2.My orders from yesstyle has finally been confirmed!(although I still have to wait for it to arrive T^T)3.I FINLLY GOT MY WORKING PAPER! yes yes yes yes! 4.Samuel and I went to sams house to hang and...<3> and last but not least.....MS CHOI IS LEAVING OUR SCHOOL AND LEAVING TO ANOTHER SCHOOL YSE YES YES !! NO MORE HER NEXT YEAR :D. Isnt that just wonderful... hee heee heee. However, there is one kind of unfortunate thing though. No more syep because the deadline was juneo2 :O... but its okay because the pay isnt good enough >< I guess ill just have to find a job inmain st :)... I can't wait for summer to come. I've planned so much stuff. I definitely can't wait till six flags !!! lalala I miss you chagi ~


Just finishd eating so ramen. so full full full FULL.

Studying for the regents

Today is a sunday and I've decided to stay home today to sudy. Honestly, I'm not the type of person to study... I mean.. even if I try to, it doesn't really stick to my head. The only way it will is if I was interested in it. So the regents is in... 2 days... and I'm going to have to read the whole entire american history review book. I'm fairly good with the beginning chapters, just not the chapters that talk about the new decades, reform movements and such. As you guys can see, im a sagittarius... and sagittarius people like to explore and are outgoing.. not people who enjoy sitting on their asses at home and studying !!!! = =...hmm online shopping right now because mom pissed me off and im going to use her CC ^_^ byebye

♥ first date with him.

so today was our actual real date without anyone else. Hmm... So i met him in front of the library.. then met up with sj because I borrowed 15$ from her for the movie. Stupid mom was being a bitch. It started to drizzle after we got off the bus so we ran to the theater. The movie night at the museum was okay. It wasn't as good as I expected. Well there was an awkward moment in the theater. I put my head on his shoulder and he put his on mine. hehe... He's so shy.. its unbelievable. After the movies we went to flushing mall to walk around. It was very boring. Then after that we just went to the bakery to sit and chat... very very awkward conversation... hmm I can see that he's trying very hard to open up to me. I myself is also trying very hard to let him get used to it. I don't know what to do though. I have never been in this kind of situation before. So after a while of awkward chatting, the most ironic thing happened. Dominique and Jeannie walked in LMAO. yea it was hilarious because dominique kept making me laugh with her stupid jokes. Yea.. so we departed and I went wtih dominique and jeannie to the library .. and borrowed some books to study blah blah. Sigh I dont want to give up on him. I'm going ot try and make this work. That's what loves all about right? Well let's hope he collaborates ^_^ btw, isnt he cute in that picture?

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Yesterday I slept at.. it wasn't really yesterday, it was about 4am.. so todayi slept at 4am and awoke at 9am:D... Yes little sleep is very bad for you.. but I couldn't stop thinking about him last night. I actually thought i got him mad since I just left like that yesterday. I kept wondering if we were still going to the movies are not and lots of other stuff >.> I installed this tetris game on my phone since... tetris is so dam fun >:). Hmm going to watch night at the museum later at 1:50. I can't wait!! This is like our first alone date...:) Btw like the new song on my blog?I first heard it on gossip girl . The episode when chuck FINALLY said I love you to herrr. awwwwwwwww :). Yes I love you are indeed 3 very special words. I hate that people now adays use these 3 words as if it was lol. It's not a word where you can fling around ! You must save it when you mean it ! Funny how 2 people first go out and you can see in their profile "est. blah blah i love you forever<3." style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);"> Not sure what to wear. sitting in front of my table right now drinking apple juiceeee hehe. I can't wait to see him arghh. post later tonight :D

....?

Hmm what's wrong with me lately? I get mood swings everyday = =.. Today is friday and I didnt even do anything after school, I just went home straigh after. They asked me to go to pool with them but I don't know why I just didn't feel like going. I was being pretty cold to Samuel afterschool.. well that's cause he treats me like that in school too. I remember when alvin asked me if I would be able to take not being so close in school... but it's really hard. No one wants to be in a relationship like this. This is nothing like what I wanted. I hope it will change. Well school is ending. Regents are coming up very soon and I havent done any studying whatsoever. I mean, how can I study when I always think about him? =/ . My mind twists and turns everytime I think about him. I always zone off in class. ahhh what is wrongwith me? I hope I don't turn into one of those crazy people. I'm wondering if I should skip school on Monday.... I don't really feel like going... ugh.

Better<3

Ive been feeling better today. Things are getting better between us. I think maybe he's getting more and more comfortable with me ^_^. Today was drizzling a little. The weather has been very weird lately. It gets really hot and starts raining out of no where =[ I'm very stressed about the regents because toda y when we were reviewing for history, I didn't remember a single thing =T. Anyways, This saturday samuel and i are going to the movies. Hmm i wonder if we will last? I hope we do =/. Many people say he's immature but I like that because it makes him fun and cute. Mature is good but there isn't much spark ;T . I hope tomorrow doesn't rain. Im getting really tired of carrying an umbrella. I love the korean group 8eight btw ! Their voices are sooo good and their songs are very addicting :) I love listening to music.. it really calms me down. I can't wait to see him tomorrow hehe.

feeling super shitty

Can't even explain how super shitty i feel right now. I yearn for lloveeeeeee. Sigh... Nothing ot type. Wish I cud express my feelings in the right form of words but it seems as if i cant. Nothing comes out correctly. What is wrong with me? God created me so he can torture me. It's just not fair =[.

Ugh I practically felt like shit the whole day.

and then you had to make it even worse.
it was going well... then boom.

I know im not making any sense right now... But i just don't know how to put it in any other words.


The only thing that can ease me is music =T

Listening to the same song over and over again because it reminds me of you....


if you like me then show it to me=T
i beg you

Im tired of hearing oh u like me and crap. then please... show it to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lazy to type but still will

Have you ever had this feeling...that when ever you like someone, you just cant see yourself being with somebody else? sigh... Feeling very stressed. Wont say why but yea.... eating right now.. first meal today and its like 8:25pm... i feel weak. MY legs are numb. My body is out of control...

i wanted you to be there when i feel
i wanted you to see me through it all
i wanted you to be the one i love
i wanted you i wanted you
i wanted you to hold me in my sleep
i wanted you to show me what i need
i wanted you to know just how damn deep
i wanted you... i wanted you

hmm...

What?....i feell...empty??...어떡하죠?....what can i do what to do what is there to do? I feel... ugh i cant even explain.took toto's with sj today. Went outside for school . hmm... My friends liked my potato salad =). ..

im cold hearted


Dont really want to sound emo or anything.. but fuck my life and myself. nothing goes right. Im sad im sad i want to die.

6.6.09♥

:D he asked me out >.< He was so shhyyyy though. His friend had to push and push him !


currently listening to : simple love- mc mong :D

Don't know what to do.

I dont know what to do. It's funny how whenever a person has problems, they come to me and I help them out and give them suggestions.. and it when it comes to me, I'm helpless. I dont know what to do anymore. I keep hearing stories and I don't know which are true and which are fake. I dont know if he really liked her or if he didnt. I dont know if he's playing both of us. Yesterday night I had a conversation with rinas friendand she was telling me that samuel calls her and that they wudve still been together if samuels mom havent found out. My heart felt like a humongous rock just landed on my chest. Samuel and I are supposed to meet up to talk things out ... I dont know.. ill update later on tonight...


Feeling like shit !


why does this always happen to me?

Chaotic day.

To be honest , I really hate my personality. I'm very immature and I get jealous too easily. So today was culture night. Kids performing, food being served, blah blah enjoy the fucking show. When I got there, my mom was sitting there already ahaha [ how cute]. Samuel , Sam, and alvin was already there. Well he's the reason why I even went in the first place. I could've stayed home to sleep. So um yea.. the show was okay... kinda boring. I expected it already anyway. So ya. At first it was just me my mom and stepdad watching the show. Later on they left to go home because I told them to. I went over to sit next to Devon, William, and Marine and them because I didnt want to sit alone... And Rina was in front of us .. along with her friend arielle. And then arielle made samuelsit next to rina because she still likes hima lot... and I guess I got very jealous. Ughs.. Ive been so tired from hearing about them two. "Ohhh samuel and rina just gave eachother looks". "oh samuel just touched her thighs". "oh samuel balh balh". I was very jealous. The more they told me the more I wanted to cry. So I decided to pull willy out to take a walk with me. Yes I shed a few tears and was comforted by willy an devon.. Samuel kept texting me and asking if i was okay. I didnt reply until I got on the bus. I was really sad. Devon and willy walked me to my bus. ANywaysd... so much more details i left out. But its for me to know. SO yea... he kept texting me... and dominique was talking to them on aim.. And i know he really likes me. and im thefirst girl he really liked. He has never experienced love and his friend said it was the first time he was feeling it. And that makes me very happy... :).. well dominique told me that hes going to ask me tomorrow.. lets see how it goes

:DDDDD

Today was fun fun fun. I hung out with Samuel <3 Even though I played in the arcade alone since he wont play ! grrr.

Happy? ^_^

Althought today was rainy sticky and humid, I liked today very much. I don't know why. Well I didnt like the beginning of the day so much. During gym, My friends and I went up to margaret and we were so close to starting a fight. But then I thought to myself that it wasnt worth it because I was already in trouble and I have a record =[.. Later on they spoke to me again and i guess its settled. Whatever, even if they did steal it it doesnt matter anymore because I have a lx now! yay ! I can finally text again hehehehehee. And oh em gee, I gave the jar of strawberries to samuel ehehe. He was so happy. We are going to hang out tomorrow :) After dominique and I study for the sats. Waaa.. its raining right now i hate it hate it hate it !!!! I wish it would be sunny tomorrow. Ahhh today is a good day ^_^ . Mommy and I are in good terms too. Thats very rare. I hope I finish my missing homework for ms marinos tomorrow. AI have so much to do tomorrow. Study study study !!!!!!!

SKipped school today.

Here I am typing on my blog. I decided not to go to school today. Why?Because I felt like it. I'm so tired of going. There's no one worth going to see. It's not like I want to see ms choi's face. Her face angers me. I hate her guts x10000. She makes my life hell. -____- And as for Samuel, I don't want to see him either. He can touch Rina's thighs all he wants. I hate people like that. Tells me they like me and then go behind my back doing stuff like that and denying it when you ask him. I wonder if next year will be better? of course it will because next year is the year that I will be graduating. I won't have to see these people ! But I do admit I have some godamn good friends. Jody, Fay(even though I haven't known her for a long time), Nicholas, Sujeong, Dominique, Fiona, Patrick, Amanda. I love you all ! :D You guys have always been there for me. Without you guys, I wouldn't exist !

What is wrong?

Today was a pretty good day.. but I don't really know. During lunch[i didnt go down to lunch] dominique and I stayed upstairs to finish on this project. She told me how she saw samuel flirting with rina in the class. I dont get it. He told me he hated her and everyone knows that he hates her and that hes annoyed of her. DOminique sai dhe probably did it because he wanted to make me jealous cus he knew dominique would tell me. It was so awkward seeing him afterschool. Everyones telling me how he and this other guy likes me. How do they even know? Is he telling people? I like him too... I really do.. I just wish he had more courage to speak up to me. Schools ending very soon and I'm very excited. Today sujeong gave me her old Lx . Im a really lucky person ... especially with sidekicks. They just love me haha. Afterschool dominique and I went to sujeongs house. It was so fun. We got to play Wii . I had so much fun hugging and kissing her little brother. He's so darn cute !!!! I wish he was mine. Ugh I'm so tired right now but I still haven't showered yet. Should I shower in the morning or not? OH and should I go to the cops and make a big deal out of the Margaret thing? Maybe I should steal something of hers back and flush it down the toilet. its not like i'd ever wanna use her nasty stuff. I really hope tomorrows a better day. I pray I pray oh I pray.

Justice needs to be served

I've never really cared about justice till after the margaret stuff. Boy I tell you that girl seriously gets on my nerves. Well a reallly nice lady cop called me today and told me that I needed to finish filling out the report because the lady there didnt do a good job. I also told her about what ms choi said and she said that what ms choi said was wrong. And that she was a bitch. DAMN RIGHT she is !! ughh!! Anywys, I waited for 3 hours and the cops didnt come so i decided to go out and get a manicure. I really like the peope who work at the nail salon. They are really nice :). While I was drying my nails, one of the customers who was phillipino spoke to me and we had a little conversation. Then she introduced me to her
brother because he wanted to speak to me lmao.. how weird.. After that I went to sally beauty supply store to buy hair --conditioner and some nail filers...o.o.. So today i was supposed to go to chemistry tutoring but sadly I woke up at 1:5opm =[. Tomorrow is movie day ! Can't wait to go watch UP. The ratings are unbelievably high. All A's! Todays weather was beautiful. Let's hope everyday is beautiful like today. It really brightens up my mood :)

I hate ms choi with a PASSION.

Fuck this mother fucking bitch ! She is not fit for our dean. She nees to get the fuck out of this schoool. Seriously. Biased bitch. Ugh I cant believe it.

went to the precinct to file a complaint on that margaret bitch :)

Good& Bad news

First I'd like to say that my sidekick was stolen yesterday at the gym locker room because I didnt have a lock. And I know who took it. It was either margaret or her friend -_-. I shouldve made her let me check her bag right after gym but I know its illegal to. Ms choi already did that last period but she said she didnt find anything. WELL DUHH that's maybe because she hid it somewhere or gave it to someone to hold -___-.Thats what I did when i found the sidekick. What made me sad wasn't really the sidekick, it was the money i usd ot buy the new spongebob case [15$] and the money i put in the phone [20$]. I had just put it in 2 days ago = =. Anyway, I aimed her today and she was threatening me and stuff blah blah blah. The smart me decided to print it out and show it to ms choi. If not then I would like to see her hit me ! I am not letting her away with this. She gets me sooOoo angry =_=. Well the good news is that I've been selected for the summer youth employment program yay !!!! Ive never really had a job before and Ive been searching for one for a long time. Also in korean clss, we each recieved a pen pal from Korea and I LOVE MINE ! she is so adorable. She is in middle school and we have very similar interest. Such as big bang, singing, shopping, and other stuff ! I guess today isnt so bad. After school samuel masaki and I went to koryodang and eh bought me food ^___^. He's soo cute !! He made fun of my little pony tail :D Well let's see what happens tomorrow in school. I hope everything goes well!!!

cant wait to go to school tomorrow :)

Yay~ Thank goodness I feel better :). I didn't think i'd be better by today. But anways, I can't wait to see him tomorrow :D. If he is going to the talent show then I'll definitely be going too so I can ehems, sit with him :D. lalalala ~ The weather has been beautiful for the past 3 days. I pretty much wasted them but it doesn't really matter because there will be more of these beautiful days ! teeeheeeeheeee. :D hmm I should really sleep now :)

Feeling much better

But my head still kinda hurts [very little] and my body is still sore. Minor coughs and minor runny nose. I guess thats good ^__^. I was so scared that I was never going to get better. I havent been eating much. No appetite. The only thing that I enjoyed eating was the cantoulope that my daddy had brought me. I am very grateful. I was so happy to hear from my stepdad that my mom was worried. I even had tears of joy ! Im very grateful for my friends =;)... Thankyou guys. I love you all. I hope I get better before school starts. Thank god monday's no school. I feel very yucky and icky because I havent taken a shower >.< yuckk! bye guys

Very weak.. && sick.

This morning started off okay. I woke up late so I asked my stepdad to drive me to school. I had a bit of phlegm in my throat but I didnt think it would get worse.I didn't start to get sick till maybe during 5th period. My body started feeling very weak and my head began to hurt. I really wanted to walk with him afterschool but then I got stopped by ms.nicodemi before I could go downstairs. She said that I had to go to chemistry tutoring. Many of the 11th graders were stopped by teachers too. I went to the room for a bit but couldn't take it anymore because I wasn't in the mood to learn anything... what I wanted was a decent sleep. I got out from the other exit and went to main st to take the bus. Unfortunately, there was an accident so the bus had to go back and take another route.. that took like 40 minutes.. I was feeling very very cold. I was shivering. So as soon as I got home.. I went to sleep. Right now, I'm still very tired. As if I haven't slept at all. I still have no appetite. And I still have so much other stuff to do. Health project, index cards, test... so on. What to do... I don't even think I have the energy to bring myself to take a shower. God help me :(

really sad at this moment..

I dont know why.. but I feel really sad at this moment. Im crying and I clearly know the reason why. Im afraid of being alone. My mom is leaving tomorrow to Boston and she asked my stepdad to come stay with me. I'm already missing my dad I dont want to have to lose mymom too. Although I always say I hate my mom and I want her to be gone, deep down inside.. i dont mean it at all. Its gonna be like 2 years ago when I had to be alone in connecticut. Spending the holidays alone.. Im not going to have my mom to yell at me , nag me, or hit me. I hate myself for being such a bad daughter. I wish I could go back and make it up to her. Im gonna miss u mom. And I hope Nick doesnt leave me because I dont know what ill do. And jody too =[... i feel so sad now. I dont want to wake up with puffy eyes so ill stop for now. Thanks for reading guys.

I'm a good girl ^___^

Instead of cutting along with the rest, I decided to go to school today. Okay fine, the real reason is because I wanted to see him ^___^... And I did :).. And he kinded hinted me and like asked me to walk with him afterschool tomorrow. He owes meh icecream!!! Ahhh he's too cuteeee >....<.. Dominique and I went to toys r us today to buy something for her sister's baby shower then we walked a bit in mainst and i bought her icecream ehehe. It was a very hot day today and the stupid bus drivers didn't turn on the AC. Damn, most bus drivers are mean. They seriously think that they are the shit ! You are just the bus drivre !!!!! btw.. I wish I could text him everyday.. too bad he went over his txt messages >.<>

ToTo!

Today was a Good Day! I didn't go to school today because many people were out yesterday. They said if more people are absent, then they might close down the school because of the flu! I seriously hope the school closes down... at least for a week! So I woke up at about 1 and went to flushing to meet up with Jon and Nick at ceo. We played some pool then went to dunkin donuts to get some hash browns. After that, we went to koryodang to get a red bean popsicle stick for me ^____^;;. Then after that we went to-to!. Jon doesn't like taking pictures so Nick & I took some very adorable pictures :)... Because my gay camera has no batteries right now, I will have to take it next time. Anyway, I hope tomorrow is a good day :D June June come faster !!! ^____________________^.

fun fun fun fun day ^_^

Its been a long time since I've had so much fun :) Went to the arcade and had a lot of fun at the park. Nick you're the best.. I regret making you waste so much money on me =T. Lazy to type more because I'm so tired and tomorrow i got stupid school.

Movie Night!

Yesterday, I went to times sq 42st to watch Next Day Air with Jody, Joan, Fay and 3 more other people. I got there first than everybody so I waited abou 30 minutes for them. I decided to walk around the stores and stuff. I went in the sanrio store and everything in there was so expensive ! I was shocked. So when they finally got there, we stood in front of the theater for a few minutes then went to mcdonalds to grab a bite and then head off to the movies. It was very fun because we took a lot of pictures and grabbed each others boobs like a million times ! hahahaha. So it was about 3 am when i finally came home and I was omfg tired....... Today I went to mainst to walk around and bought some stuff... and a pair of shoes.. thats all byebye

Where's the progress?

Comon.. please make things progress a little faster. I want me&him to progress a litter faster. My hair to grow faster.. and school to end faster so I can go to China this summer :)

Most embarrasing day of my life.

Today.. was the most embarrasing day of my life. I was supposedly supposed to text sujeong... about him but instead, I sent him the text message. I texted "Do you think samuel is messing around with my head? " omfg at that moment I just wanted to commit suicide by shooting my head with a gun. Why am I so fucking retarded sometimes? .... What to do what to do? I wonder what's gonna happen next...What am I going to do if I see him tomorrow in school... Pinch me so I can see if this is a dream or not. I really wish I hadn't said that. Im so tired right now but its only 6:58... I want to sleep this feeling off because being anxious and having butterflies in your stomach is not the best feeling in the world. Boy I was so paranoid... however speaking to my friends made me feel much better. Good thing is that I'm almost level 11 in restaurant city :). God I don't know if you exist or not... but if you do... please make things go well tomorrow...

God is Unfair

If there is a god why is he being so unfair? If i was the creator of my world, I'd want everybody to be happy. There would be no sickness and no hatred... although people would have to die for the fear that the world would crowd up :). Anyway, my point is that he's just so unfair that many of the innocent people have to suffer while the evil bad bad people get away with things. Life sucks. I wish I was never born into this world. I wish I lived in planet unicorn where everything is mello and beautiful and no worrriesssssss. Btw, my dean ms choi is so twoface its not even funny. Ugh = =...I think I might start being vegetarian again..

confused

What to do?

my whole day... RUINED

I'm very angry at this very instance. I'm so close to blowing some bitches heads off. Who the fuck they think they are? They have no fucking right to say anything when they are sluts themselves. They are nothing but garbage thats being handed around. Fucking bitches that's been around every fucking block. DAMN MOTHER FUCKERS. WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO Me. I didnt do anything but just stand there and suddenly I get involved. Shit i want to get a mother fucking bazooka and bomb those bitches up. FUCK YOOO!! Right now I need a punching bag!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK FUCK FUKK!!!!!!!!!!!

*btw why the fuck did i keep seeing samuel and them... i even saw them in ec -_-


And I saw zhang and gary...

wtf..................... What day is today? Friday 13? shit yo -_- I really need a chillpill.

As of now, I just want to know who my real friends are. [Jody of course<3]

Another wet day.

I think the rain enjoys being here and not leaving. It's been and week and its still raining. I have to stop procrastinating and being lazy. Nothing much happened today except I finally added money into my phone. Let's hope the weather starts getting better.....

My mother pisses me OFF.

Like seriously. She gets on my nerves EVERYDAY. The only time she doesn't get on my nerves is when she isn't HOME. I mean seriously. Why in the world do I have to have sucha mom. I know i know, you're gonna say "oh don't say that shes ur mom she loves you" I fucking know that. But the point here is she pisses me off so it is what it is. i need to get away from this place before I blow someones fucking head off.Everything she says something retarded I feel like stabbing the shit outta her. Im such an angry person ... yes I know.

Another point I want to make is that... Don't fucking play hard to get ! Seriously. I hate it when "good looking" people trying to act all high class... thinking they're so fucking untouchable. Real attraction comes from the personality. Fucking tired of this piece of shit world -_-. And my assistant principle is a real fucked up racist son of a bitch. And hes gay. I dont give a shit if hes married to a woman I stil l think hes gay. He talks like a girl and walks like a girl. Mother fucking shit! If only I had a killing spree.. boy how many people would die.

School Trip

Before I brush my teeth and head to bed, i decided not to be lazy and write a journal entry. Basically, today's weather was no better than yesterdays... although it was only drizzle, my flats still got wet. [ never am i going to wear flats in the rain]. As usual, I took the bus and thank god I didnt have to see that crazy guy again. After muster ended, we went to on the trip. We went to 5 religious centers. The muslim center, shikh center, buddhist temple, macedonia church, and lastly the free synagogue. My favorite center.. personally, would be the free synagogue. Unlike other centers who didn't hesistate to take our donations, the free synagogue said to us " the best donation to us is for you to be good peope." When I heard that, I thought to myself "wow, there really isn't greedy people in this world." Not saying that the centers that did recieve our donations were. Anyways, the lunch was good. Instead of eating school lunch, we got to eat chinese food :) By the way, only a fw people were able to go on this trip because we were chosen for our leadership. Im happy that I was chosen. And oh.. I just wanted to say.. Dont you hate girls who act cute in front of guys but a bitch in front of girls?! Ugh.. seriously disgust me. Gotta go finish up my drama before heading off to bed :) History test tomorrow. Since today I didn't get to see him I hope to see him tomorrow ! yay! *prays

Very soggy wet day.

Hello again guys ! I know I've already updated this morning.. but i feel like i have so much to write about. First off... guess who I saw again at the bus stop... THE CRAZY DUDE! I frikken knew it! Im such a jinx. This time.. as he walked closer to me, I gave a call to Jody, but too bad she didnt pick up because she thought I had called by accident and she didn't want to waste my minutes. Then LUCKILY, the bus came! HALLALUAH! So the chemistry mock regents wasn't as hard as i expected, but i still think I failed. During lunch, Samuel came to our table. He's so cute! One of my friends told me that he said I was cute . Awww.. what a loser.. doesn't even have the courage to come talk to me. Afterschool we walked with them and he kept flicking water at me and calling me short >:O! im not that short okay !!! So after we departed, i went with dominique to her clinic to get her note so she could participate in gym again. Horrible weather. My flats were soaked. I felt like I was walking barefoot on the wet wet soggy ground. It was so humid and disgusting. I hate rainy days so much -_-. Right when I got home, i threw those flats out. yuck. hmm so hungry . Ive been so lazy lately.Too lazy to do homework and stuff. Crap I also have a history test tomorrow. OH my oh my... and a health project thats due this friday.... anddddddd.... ii have to edit a lot of stuff. AHHHHHH 5 more weeks left of school. When I think of this, a burst of joy just bursts out of my heart !!! Time to eat and watch my drama and finish up some homework! I can't wait to see him tomorrow yay !! ^______^

Truth is....

Im really a Vampire. yes.. be scared !
Okay.. I didn't sleep at all . Well I took a nap from 6-11 but thats it. I decided to type a quick post before heading out to the bus. The weather outside looks disgusting. My whole mood is ruined -_-. I've just realized that I have a chemistry mock regents first period and I didnt study at all. Chemistry is my worst subject!!!! -_-... I wish I didn't have to take this class. Oh damn I can't wait till I get to college ! I can't wait to move out :).. Anyways.. Later when I get to school I wonder if Sujeong will speak to me. If she does then I'll just be like wtf.. because she has got problems ! Oh sun please come out more often! I really want a tan![just like the picture of son dambi ;)] Anywy. right now im camwhoring before going out!i hopetoday will turn out good because I really don't want to have to go hulk on anybody =/.... Anyways! See ya later alligators ! Ill update later if anything itneresting happens. letshope i dont meet that crazy guy on the bus stop again* prays*


Ps. I need a manicure =[

Fun Night

I was going to write an entry yesterday, however it was too hard to keep my eyes open. Last nighti went to flushing to meet up with Nick and Jon and went to four seasons after to shoot pool. They called me a cheater !! And you all no thats not the case because i dont cheat :D. haha fine okay I cheated like once. Hmm.. So after that we went to a korean ktv to sing and i loveeeeeeeed it because i love korean songs :) ANd after we went to jons house. Thats when i started to get extremely tired. My eyes were getting really itchy tooo ><. I even tried doing handstand there. So after a while of sitting and playing games in his house, nick walked me to the bus stop and we sat there talking while waiting for the bus. I went home and went on the computer for a few minutes and was knocked out. Now it is 1:45pm and i fnished brushing my teeth. Im soooo tired right now. Watching tvb on my computer. Grrrrr Im still mad at the weather because I was supposed to go to the beeach this weekend to geta tan !!!. I hope I find a job soon. Haha btw... Ive decided that I'm not going to easily fall in love anymore ! I'm going to find the perfect guy! yay me!

Crazy People

This morning, as usual, I walked to my bus stop to take the Q58. As I was standing there with a few other people, waiting, I saw this crazy guy I've seen about a month ago. He was tall and black, wearing a backpack. I was busy listening to music and typing on my sidekick when he waved to try to catch my attention. I looked up and took my ipod earphones out. He then asked me about my "book bag" and what it stood for( It was a victorias secret tote). He was weird. I knew he was crazy because of the way he spoke and the way he dressed. He looked about 40 years old. Anyway, my day wasn't that good. I felt really tired and gloomy most of the time. It was very humid too. As usual, we didn't talk in school. I just don't understand. A few weeks ago we were texting eachother non stop... and after he came back from florida, he just stopped talking to me. Was it something that I did wrong? Anyway.. afterschool I walked around mainst because I needed a new bathing suit. I walked into Joyce leslie and they didn't have the kind of bathing suit that I wanted so I wlked to old navy and I found a nice polka dotted brown bathing suit. Before going to the beach, I'm going to lose some weight !!! But it's not easy at all.... Must work hard must work hard !!!

Lol by the way, that picture of me up there was from a week ago :)